Ode to my God

As I walk in my garden, watching as the tomatoes turn bright red in the sun. I am thankful to God. For I know God created it for me. I know that the fresh ripe red strawberries shaped like a human heart are all the proof that I need that God loves me. As I cut into huge watermelon and slowing bring it to my mouth, I think of God and all his bounty. Why do we question the existence of God. The red rose, the tulip and even the wildflowers are food for the mind. What purpose do the flowers have, say I? To make me happy, as happy as I can be. The cold snow as it falls from the sky, I dance and sing with the snowflakes landing on my nose and in my eyes. A snowflake, each one different inticate, delicate, with a lace like design. God created the snowflake just for me.

Blood Lust

The Vikings arrived on the shores of America. The blond, muscular giant of a man walked slowly aith a look of determination. He shouted out orders as he took command of the situation. He could feel eyes watching him as he walked towars the forest. The gentle warm breeze felt good as it carass his face. It felt good to be on land. He heard a strange singing and was drawn to the music. She was bathing her young son and splashing about.She was dark like the earth, a sexual creature. She heard the crunchingof foot steps. She turned and gazed into his eyes. The start of a new race, Cherokee people, so pround to live, so proud to die.

Death

We travel to Las Vegas, NM for the day of shopping and Lunch out. She was tired of taking care of her husband. He was older than her, a World War II veteran who had open heart surgery and was confined to a wheel chair. I had stayed at her house and needed the bathroom. It didn't have a door and the blanket was short and high. They can see me, so I did it fast. No wonder I'm on the paranoid side. It was because of Pepe, so the wheel chair could fit. I just thought they were weirdos.

As we headed home, she said, "I just wish he would die!" I dropped her off and stayed in the car for a while. I should have said Hello and Good Bye to Pepe but I didn't, I just sat in the car and then left to pick up the kids.

He died that night, and I felt bad, sad and confused.

Living the Lie

If you can't live the dream, you can live the Lie. Pretending you are happy, smiling when you feel like crying. Pretending his words don't hurt but they do. Maybe he is right, living a Fantasy Life. Does he care, or I'm I just his amusement, someone who he is curious about not someone he cares about. I hear the dog howling for his bitch, he's gone for a while, now he back with a smile. He smells her heat for miles and finally he finds her, panting and grinning, his delight and his pleasure. If only my life could be so simple. To wait and wonder, for life's thunder, the storms and the rains shall come from the pain.

Wine

I drink the wine, just like Jesus. I know the power behind the drink, for it is only the way to reach you. I fear you and the love, don't you see. I've love you from a thousand days of old. You left me for another. But I always wait for you, my true love. God made this life from Heaven Above. Don't you see, I await thee. My love, my life, my everything. I love you...I will always love you, my dear one, the hair, the eyes, your mind, I Love you always, My love, my life. You are my everything..........I thought I lost you and I started to die, don't leave my love, for I will die without you, My love, please don't leave me, my muse, my life, my love...

Royal Bee

The smell, the wildness, the animal. Royal Bee, a long line of pedigree. Now she belongs to me, a wild filly, who know she is where she belongs. The smell of the wild, the the longing to be free. She belongs to me. My beautiful Bee. She smells of freedom and love, just like me................

To the Man that I Love.........

I Love you with no bounds. I heard your beautiful voice and I was spell bound. The man, the voice, the sound. I never knew what love could be. The Look, the sound, the man , you were the mqn thats I always wanted, before my mind could see, I love your loo, the hair, smile that could stare. Love my man, my everything. You are what I always wanted, maybe it was what I always needed. Your love, your mind, your body, your need. I will always love my man, even when he is with another. I shall not forget, for I love you. Now and always, for you are mine...........

The Body and Blood of Christ

The dark red wine, blood of Christ. His last supper knowing that only death a waits. The chalice of dark red wine and the bread of his body. His soul, his life, his way. He gave his life so I might see. The torment of his soul as his life slowly leaves. "Father they do not know!" I do know! The whip, the jeers, the walk to his death. The prayers, the tears, all I need is for you to be near.

Runaway

Sometime the need to runaway from life. The anger, the tears, the saddness of fears. Hitchhiking and liking the people I meet. A ride so far away. A restaurant named the "Royal Fork" maybe that was all I need. Returning to land that I love. Maybe another day, when I'm not so young.

Words from a Son

What do I have to do to "Make It?
I'm selling and slangin.
I running with God's word.
I'm ridin in trustin God's word.
Cause I've got to "Make It."
I'm not ready for prison.
I'mnot ready to die.
I will follow God's word.
Cause I've got to make it. (God's Word)
I doing what I have to do to "Get It."
I'm making it at any means.
I'm doing it at any cost.
Cause I've got to "Have It."
God is on my side.

Grandmothers

One I knew, my staff, the one I always leaned on. Steadfast and wise, she was the one I counted on when everything went wrong in my life. The other was gone to the Heavens above. Maybe she was also there, only the sound of her wings as she cared for me. Now there are two sets of wings, watching over me.

Fire

The walls of flame come marching down the hills eating twig, bush and tree. Search and destroy commands the Fire War Lord. I shall reclaim what is mine. As the flames continue down its path of destruction.

Remember Me

The last time I saw him, he was being loved by another. She told me, she was smelling funky! Women have their own way of hurting each other. All is fair in "Love and War." Maybe I'm not as good in this game called "Love," or is it calls "Lust>" I've never been "In Love" just have been loved, sometimes. Or maybe I'm the one who doesn't know how to love. As I grow older, I'm seeing the world in Rose color glasses and hopefully he is still there...................

People

Sometimes the peope we meet are friends of old. Waiting, watching for a moment of our time.

Love

It's easy when we are young to fall in Love. His lips, his eyes, the way his pants caress his thighs. He walks in front while you wander behind, thinking he is such a great guy. You gaze into his beautiful eyes. But for it to be real is when we grow older. The fights, the slamming of the doors, maybe it time to start over. Another guy with beautiful eyes, and pants that caresses his thighs.

Life in a Nut Shell

Life starts with the your Guardian Angel, watching over you as start your journey out of you mother's womb. Sometimes it's your Mother's prayers when she has for God's help. "I am here."

I Learned alot from my Guardian Angel. To dream the impossible dream. Learn to have plenty of play in all your relationships. A good laugh chases away the blues. Forgive, forget, and alway move ahead. Sometimes being yourself is the best thing. Each day is a gift from God so enjoy the world and it people, even if we don't agree. Even a good arguement can be inspiration. As long as you can still be friends afterwards and agree to disagree. Life in a nut shell, crack it open and enjoy........

Zsazsa's Reality